Okay. So here it is. I know I’ve kind of danced around a ‘health issue’ in a few of my past blogs but haven’t really said what’s going on with me. And I’m not really sure why. Some possibilities: a.) it’s yucky and I don’t want to talk about it, b.) I don’t want anyone to feel bad or sorry for me, c.) I know I’m going to be fine so don’t want to sound like a baby, d.) I’m incredibly fortunate and others have it so much worse so I should just shut up and put my big girl panties on, e.) I don’t like putting it out there to the Universe. But again, here it is….
They found a lump. Sad to say that that sentence right there is really all I have to say. But you know me, I’ll go on! Lol! A few days after Christmas I had a lumpectomy to remove a very small lump in my boob (Does anyone else hate the word breast? Okay, maybe that’s just me…). Yes, it was cancerous, but it’s out and as of right now I am cancer free. My team of doctors does, however, want me to participate in several rounds of chemo and some radiation. Which brings me to the point of this blog…which is NOT about me, but about how different we all are when it comes to this type of thing and how COOL that really is.
When the hubby and I were sitting down with my doctors laying out a plan on how we wanted to handle this, we asked them to talk to us about numbers and percentages. My doctor (whom I love and trust) gave me the percentage of recurrence if I do the chemo and then the percentage if I don’t. The percentage of recurrence if I don’t, for ME, was just too high. However, that same number for a friend of mine was fine. In other words, we each felt differently about the same piece of information. And THAT’S OKAY. Because we each choose how to deal with something in the way that works the best for us.
The other night I was with some friends and of course they all know what’s going on so we talked a bit about it. Unfortunately, pretty much everyone you meet has a story about cancer. Either they themselves have had it or someone they know has. So I was talking to my friend and she was telling me how a friend of hers has throat cancer, like really bad, and that she’s choosing to deal with it completely and totally holistically. She has changed her diet and basically her total lifestyle in order to fight it and it seems to be working. Her tumor is shrinking. Which is so cool I can barely stand it. But the more we talked about it, the more I realized, I couldn’t do what she’s doing. The restrictions on her lifestyle are working for her, but I know they wouldn’t work for me. (I’ll admit. I like a cocktail every now and again…and sushi and chocolate and full gluten pasta and ice cream and…) But again, how great that that’s what she has chosen to do and it’s working for her!
So, the point of all this is, we all get to do what’s right for us. We all get to take the information given and process it in our own way. AND we all get to choose to support each other in what we each choose. I totally and completely love and appreciate each and everyone of my peeps for doing just that.
Allowing me to do what’s right for me.
(I’m going to be fine. If for no other reason than that way I can continue to spew forth with whatever I feel like sharing with you all on a weekly basis….)
Live and Learn in Munay…