A couple of weeks ago a friend and colleague texted me with some really incredible news about an opportunity that presented itself to her. And like I was explaining in last week’s blog about my reaction to my Mediumship training, this opportunity brought up a lot of stuff for her. I think she’s pretty excited about it, but also terrified. And as we texted back and forth and as I was telling her how super psyched I was for her, I realized that I was also pretty damn jealous that this amazing thing was happening for her and not for me.
Yep, I’m human.
And I told her that in my text. I told her that I was so happy for her, but was also ‘lovingly’ jealous at the same time. And this part of our text string was pretty cool. She thanked me for being so honest about being jealous.
As it always tends to do when I need to hear something, this theme has been popping up a lot for me lately. The theme of how important and awesome it is to just go ahead and speak your mind. Say the thing you’re just not supposed to say (of course in a nice way…don’t want you all thinking it’s okay to be rude). For me it’s about getting it out of my head. If I were to sit on that ‘jealousy’ thing it probably would have festered. I know this because that’s what I’ve pretty much always done. Not put something like that out there because it feels yucky to admit something like that. And it did feel yucky! But once I got it out, once I admitted how I was feeling, it really kind of dissipated. Once I said it and owned it, it was like I was able to brush my hands of it and focus on the awesome things that are happening to me or that I’m trying to manifest.
So here’s what I’m doing from now on. Even if I have no one to say something to, I’m still saying it out loud. Just to get it out there…
Mirror, mirror on the wall….
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