So the hubby and I are going on what most folks would call ‘the trip of a lifetime’ this summer. We’re going with friends and while I’m super excited to see these guys, I’m not all that super excited about the trip itself. They are and the hubby is, but for some reason I’ve found that I’m not. So obviously, being the type of person that lives in my head (nothing to emulate there…) I’m spending a whole lot of time trying to figure out why I’m not super excited. And guess what keeps coming up for me. Control issues. (Aaaarrgh.)
So the thing is, I LOVE the idea of visiting the various destinations we will be visiting. But I HATE the idea of all the planning, prepping, processes, connections, transfers, etc. (those things that are out of my hands…) that we have to go through to get to those places. Why do I hate them? Because all those parts and pieces to me have started to represent areas where things can go wrong. WHAT?! In other words, when it comes to this trip, it feels like I’m reverting back to my old self and living in a place of ‘what can go wrong, will go wrong.’ Which is really, I mean REALLY pissing me off. And it’s like I’m fighting the whole thing. When the hubby starts talking about something cool that we’ll be doing, I’m acting like Tom Hanks in Joe vs the Volcano saying, ‘Well yeah, but we’re still in the middle of the ocean and we’re going to drown!’ And the hubby…lord love his heart…acts like Meg Ryan in same movie and says, ‘It’s always going to be something with you isn’t it Ger?’ But that’s not really me!
As a person who lives by the Law of Attraction I know that this is the exact opposite of what you should do in life. And this thought pattern is keeping me in a place that is the exact opposite of where I want to be…happy. And the thing is, I KNOW THIS! I work on this kind of thing with my clients ALL THE TIME. (Which is why I say to anyone doing this work that they have to continue to do their OWN work…)
Yesterday I was watching the tail end of a cheesy Hallmark movie (of course…) and one of the characters said that old quote, “Life begins at the edge of your comfort zone.” (Not sure who originally said that, so sorry for not giving you credit whoever you are.) So okay. For some reason I’m uncomfortable about all the parts and pieces of this trip.
I guess that means my life is about to begin!
Live and learn in Munay.